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From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Without this understanding, we often defer the risk to love: I need to establish myself before I can get involved. I need nice clothes first. We also defer love once it is before us, under the guise of safeguarding our future: I won't call long distance now, because I'll need the money when I retire. I won't meet them at this concert now, because I'll need money for a new car in six years. I can't afford to enter counseling with my partner because we need storm windows. Certainly, we have to balance and make choices, but with no love in the house, there is no need for storm windows.
I find myself in the very real realisation of the direct opposite of this. Being half of what's being called a Bination couple, a greater part of my financial commitment is in travelling overseas in order to be able to spend time with the one I love.
Mir has on several occasions asked that I don't do this, especial now, when money is tight before our jobs are uncertain... but truly, neither of us want me to do that... we'd rather spend the money on the flight that brings us together and eat... say... peanut butter sandwiches for two weeks because it's all we could afford, because it means that we have the chance to spend those two weeks together, in love.
It's a choice, a conscious choice - and it's one I would make over and over again... happily... and question the connection to soul of those who might consider that to be irresponsible.
That might seem harsh, if it does, so be it. I'll leave you with the the thought in that text that encapsulates the Love above all.
I am now forced to ask, Beyond rent and health insurance, for what are we saving? If the love we have is not brought to life out here in the world, we risk saving for a future that may never come or that, in fact, may find us just ghosts of spirit, unable to live it because we've squandered our chances to love along the way.
If the love I have isn't working,
what good is money?
Without this understanding, we often defer the risk to love: I need to establish myself before I can get involved. I need nice clothes first. We also defer love once it is before us, under the guise of safeguarding our future: I won't call long distance now, because I'll need the money when I retire. I won't meet them at this concert now, because I'll need money for a new car in six years. I can't afford to enter counseling with my partner because we need storm windows. Certainly, we have to balance and make choices, but with no love in the house, there is no need for storm windows.
I find myself in the very real realisation of the direct opposite of this. Being half of what's being called a Bination couple, a greater part of my financial commitment is in travelling overseas in order to be able to spend time with the one I love.
Mir has on several occasions asked that I don't do this, especial now, when money is tight before our jobs are uncertain... but truly, neither of us want me to do that... we'd rather spend the money on the flight that brings us together and eat... say... peanut butter sandwiches for two weeks because it's all we could afford, because it means that we have the chance to spend those two weeks together, in love.
It's a choice, a conscious choice - and it's one I would make over and over again... happily... and question the connection to soul of those who might consider that to be irresponsible.
That might seem harsh, if it does, so be it. I'll leave you with the the thought in that text that encapsulates the Love above all.
I am now forced to ask, Beyond rent and health insurance, for what are we saving? If the love we have is not brought to life out here in the world, we risk saving for a future that may never come or that, in fact, may find us just ghosts of spirit, unable to live it because we've squandered our chances to love along the way.
