I suspect I've been 'coming down with something' for a few days now, due to how tired and lethargic I've been. We went to pick up a friend's son from Driver's Ed and take him home, and we decided to hang with him for a while, mostly because we enjoy the company of all the family members in his family, and while my spouse was getting his Minecraft fix in, I just fell asleep on the couch.
Likewise, the evening... I'd intended to make a start in earnest on the outline for Use'Ara: Harm, (which note is a new working title - likely the one I'll use - for the first installment in the Use'Ara series.), instead we spent the evening watching 'fake Star Trek' (or should I say The Orville). Fun, but not exactly what I'd intended.
We lost an hour of sleep last night too - spring forward!
Onwards!
Beautiful Day
Mar. 3rd, 2019 05:59 pmThe people at Alamance Battleground were so very friendly and allowed us to bring the dogs inside the house to see the things that they had there. We were more than ready to wait until next weekend when we knew we'd be there without them, or to take turns to go inside, but the people were very accommodating. The house was tiny, and when you consider a husband, wife and 12 children lived there...! Privacy? What's that?
Home for a dinner of Apple "sausage" patties... home made. Very tasty, and as Mir suggested they'd be nice for a breakfast food instead, the few left over, we saved for breakfast. After that it was movie night, with popcorn, also made at home in the popper that Mir's Mother got for us one Christmas. It's been a very good gift.
The Greatest Showman is a really good movie full of annoyingly catchy songs that are sure to get stuck in your head. I really enjoyed it, and as Mir noted, not without irony that I shared, "Now they're all gone." (The Circuses).
The Sensuality of Spring
Apr. 1st, 2012 10:39 amTime's a cheat, and cheats us all. Time, a thief,
steals from us all. Where does it keep
the years is has taken? Look, here is a man
who yesterday was just a boy. And look who looks
upon that man: who but Love herself, the goddess
Venus, woulnded by her son Cupid, a careless lad
who kissed his mother while he still wore his quiver,
scraping her white breast with his barbed arrows.
And what becomes of her? Love, in love, abandons
all her temples and her island sactuaries, even
hides from heaven, saying that her love is
more beautiful than heaven, more beautiful
that all the sea-ringed islands or rich mountain shrines
or even the voluptuous shade wherein she used to lie.
Love, in love, becomes a huntress, tucking up her robes
and running with bare feet across the rocky world.
--Ovid, Metamorphoses
As the snow melts and the days grow longer, as the buds swell upon the trees and catkins dangle from branches, our sensual selves expand and stretch.
Seeing spring in a new country has been... well... strange, but yes in a sensual kind of way. I realised this as I was thinking on this all through the day, and meditating on it later, and now as I am typing it up it is hitting me again, just how much difference the similarity contains.
Different flowers, none of which I knew the names of, are starting to bloom... I can tell it's spring, just by my nose - new pollen for my hay fever to play with, which is not a complaint, strangely enough. An observation, but a strangely curious one. Perhaps I should make an effort to find out what the flowers are called. Some of them certainly smell nice, pollen notwithstanding
There are different bird calls too, that are splitting the spring air, playing around my senses. I was coming back from taking something to a collegues house recently for example, and could hear an unfamiliar bird call. I couldn't for the life of me locate the bird to see what it was, so I have no idea, but here, as well as the sparrows (they seem to be everywhere), there are new birds to learn. Maybe I should see if I can find a place that has examples of their calls... but the biggest difference is being in a place where I can hear hawks - wild ones - calling. That reaches me on many different sensual levels. I wish I saw them as often as I can hear them.
And through the day - different sensations of different temperatures... ranging from really cold, through to moderately hot. I have to put 'moderately' because I'm constantly being told that 'you ain't felt nothing yet.' whenever I tell someone I'm hot. I'm aware that it gets hot in the desert, people... what I'm saying is it's already different from what I'm used to. Again, not complaining - (seems like people haven't cottoned on to the fact that I've shifted my attitude in some things) - just making a statement of fact.
Perhaps the one sense that isn't getting stimulated with the changing of the season is taste. I'm sure there are different foods available in different seasons, but in the supermarket, where I still do most of my shopping - not yet so confident as to venture to do too much in the souk right now - things seem the same year round. Perhaps as I come to feel even more confident I can go to the souk and see what might be there and might be seasonal, and try a new set of tastes. It's something to think about.
Stream from Meditation
Jan. 30th, 2012 12:40 amAt the fireside
I want to sing.
At the fireside
I want to call spirits.
Here among you
my body will rest
while my soul travels
to the center of the earth.
When I return, I will sing:
children, here is what
I have learned, here
is what you need to know.
Children, children!
Go with the sun!
Direct your steps to her,
to the mother of morning!
--Siberian shaman chant
The almost imperceptible extension of daylight has barely been noticeable... In the dark, in our dreams, in our deepest selves, we grow and change. Yet these changes are not immediately visible to those around use - or even, sometimes, to ourselves.
Changes both ways, works both way... sometimes we also fail to notice an inexhorable slide into darkness. T happened with me, and like Kore or Persephone I had dwelled too long in the dark - awaiting spring - awaiting the time when I would, when I could ascend again into the light, into the self I long to be.
Today, I notice a ghost of myself reflected in the pale face, strung with resisted tears and silent, casting aside a shield of defensive anger, I offer myself; my shoulder; my hand. I offer my ear and my confidence. This is apart from self pity, self defense, self importances... self, self, self. This is answering another's call, another's need. Another... another, an other. Light glimmers on a far distant horizon, a memory - and I reach.
Breaking bread - literal friend to Maslow - Chicken Noodle Soup of the Soul. Hard earth softens, breaks, and a single snowdrop peeps from my heart. Call me if you need anything - and the words are said not because they are what I should speak, but because they are what I mean.