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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Without this understanding, we often defer the risk to love: I need to establish myself before I can get involved. I need nice clothes first. We also defer love once it is before us, under the guise of safeguarding our future: I won't call long distance now, because I'll need the money when I retire. I won't meet them at this concert now, because I'll need money for a new car in six years. I can't afford to enter counseling with my partner because we need storm windows. Certainly, we have to balance and make choices, but with no love in the house, there is no need for storm windows.
I find myself in the very real realisation of the direct opposite of this. Being half of what's being called a Bination couple, a greater part of my financial commitment is in travelling overseas in order to be able to spend time with the one I love.
Mir has on several occasions asked that I don't do this, especial now, when money is tight before our jobs are uncertain... but truly, neither of us want me to do that... we'd rather spend the money on the flight that brings us together and eat... say... peanut butter sandwiches for two weeks because it's all we could afford, because it means that we have the chance to spend those two weeks together, in love.
It's a choice, a conscious choice - and it's one I would make over and over again... happily... and question the connection to soul of those who might consider that to be irresponsible.
That might seem harsh, if it does, so be it. I'll leave you with the the thought in that text that encapsulates the Love above all.
I am now forced to ask, Beyond rent and health insurance, for what are we saving? If the love we have is not brought to life out here in the world, we risk saving for a future that may never come or that, in fact, may find us just ghosts of spirit, unable to live it because we've squandered our chances to love along the way.
If the love I have isn't working,
what good is money?
Without this understanding, we often defer the risk to love: I need to establish myself before I can get involved. I need nice clothes first. We also defer love once it is before us, under the guise of safeguarding our future: I won't call long distance now, because I'll need the money when I retire. I won't meet them at this concert now, because I'll need money for a new car in six years. I can't afford to enter counseling with my partner because we need storm windows. Certainly, we have to balance and make choices, but with no love in the house, there is no need for storm windows.
I find myself in the very real realisation of the direct opposite of this. Being half of what's being called a Bination couple, a greater part of my financial commitment is in travelling overseas in order to be able to spend time with the one I love.
Mir has on several occasions asked that I don't do this, especial now, when money is tight before our jobs are uncertain... but truly, neither of us want me to do that... we'd rather spend the money on the flight that brings us together and eat... say... peanut butter sandwiches for two weeks because it's all we could afford, because it means that we have the chance to spend those two weeks together, in love.
It's a choice, a conscious choice - and it's one I would make over and over again... happily... and question the connection to soul of those who might consider that to be irresponsible.
That might seem harsh, if it does, so be it. I'll leave you with the the thought in that text that encapsulates the Love above all.
I am now forced to ask, Beyond rent and health insurance, for what are we saving? If the love we have is not brought to life out here in the world, we risk saving for a future that may never come or that, in fact, may find us just ghosts of spirit, unable to live it because we've squandered our chances to love along the way.
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I'm just wondering...
Date: 2011-03-04 11:35 pm (UTC)Re: I'm just wondering...
Date: 2011-03-05 04:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-05 04:26 pm (UTC)BTW, I just wanted to let you know that I have been reading your posts and musings with great interest, and pondered on the quotations from Awakening. I've said nothing because 1. what can I say that adds to it? 2. It would be too much blah blah from me, and I'm not good at introspection (really, I am not...) 3. Have been deeply sunk in editing (I know, you're tired of hearing that excuse, but it's true) 4. I am ashamed that I did not have a chance to read your awesome, epic SGA saga. ***hangs head in shame***
Well, cheers then, A.
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Date: 2011-03-05 08:09 pm (UTC)I'm glad to know that you have been reading my posts and finding them interesting. Awakening really is a very good book. I'd recommend it to anyone really, whether good at introspection or not. Each daily 'thought' comes with a meditation, or set of instructions for something to do, (obviously not the whole of each day's entry has been quoted for copyright reasons among other things), and it's really very uplifting and enlightening.
Don't worry about feeling a response would be too much 'blah blah' as you put it. I'm happy to read whatever you'd care to say - which goes for anyone else, really - and I don't tire of hearing that you're editing... it's good that you are, and it makes me happy.
I'm sure you'll get to my SGA vs when you have the time, don't worry - but you and I must catch up some time. E-mail me some time you need respite from your editing, okay?