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Mar. 8th, 2003
Always the ex....
Mar. 8th, 2003 09:51 pmI'm going to have to stop watching Eiri's show with her. It seems to be upsetting me more than it is otherwise. Okay so Tony and Ben's relationship being shown is a good thing. It's been sensitively handled and very tastefully shown. A credit to the network that made the show I guess...
So last week, because of the baby thing I ended up all worried about Dakota. This week it hits far closer to home. Tony and Ben. So they're having a celebration of moving in together, and the ex, who just won't give up (Ben's ex - a man who, when they were together didn't tell Ben that he was still married, and didn't tell his wife that he was in a relationship with another man), turns up and screws everything up. Tony ended up storming out (because of the fact that they'd slept together) Ben follows... Tony and Ben fight, and Tony falls into the river, but not before he cracked his back on the rail of a boat on the way down. The episode ends with Tony's heart stopping.
And what do I do? I worry about Land if anything should happen to me while I'm working. Even though I know the possibilities of anything happening are so slim as to be negligible, failing something falling on the van or something. But still I worry what it would do to Land... Land and Dakota both.
And what else do I worry about? Absurd as it is, since I think we've just about told each other everything about our past already, I worry about Michelle turning up and trying to cause trouble. It's the kind of thing she'd do.
But nothing she could do would make any difference to Land and I. There /is/ no way I can even conceive of being without him. Without him, my world ends. Oh she might try... but what the hell am I doing. Thinking about a situation that's just a fear... not a reality. Pull yourself together Cody!
As I said, I really have to stop watching that show with Eiri.
-c-
So last week, because of the baby thing I ended up all worried about Dakota. This week it hits far closer to home. Tony and Ben. So they're having a celebration of moving in together, and the ex, who just won't give up (Ben's ex - a man who, when they were together didn't tell Ben that he was still married, and didn't tell his wife that he was in a relationship with another man), turns up and screws everything up. Tony ended up storming out (because of the fact that they'd slept together) Ben follows... Tony and Ben fight, and Tony falls into the river, but not before he cracked his back on the rail of a boat on the way down. The episode ends with Tony's heart stopping.
And what do I do? I worry about Land if anything should happen to me while I'm working. Even though I know the possibilities of anything happening are so slim as to be negligible, failing something falling on the van or something. But still I worry what it would do to Land... Land and Dakota both.
And what else do I worry about? Absurd as it is, since I think we've just about told each other everything about our past already, I worry about Michelle turning up and trying to cause trouble. It's the kind of thing she'd do.
But nothing she could do would make any difference to Land and I. There /is/ no way I can even conceive of being without him. Without him, my world ends. Oh she might try... but what the hell am I doing. Thinking about a situation that's just a fear... not a reality. Pull yourself together Cody!
As I said, I really have to stop watching that show with Eiri.
-c-