I need to LISTEN!

[cedar_grove]

Wisdom is calling us, Sophia is calling.
Raising her voice, she stands by the city gates,
at the crossroads, on the mountaintop.
At every entrance she is standing, shouting
to us: "O people," she calls, "learn from me!
Listen to me, for I speak nothing but truth.
Know my ways, for they are richer than silver.
Know my secrets, and you do not need gold.
Listen to me, my words are more precious than rubies.
My words are riper than figs, sweeter than dates,
more nourishing than apples and olives.
Kings and princes and careful judges know me,
and so do those who simply love knowledge.
Follow me on the path of truth.
Follow me to the way of justice."

--Proverbs 7-9

She must raise her voice to be heard over the din of commerce and competing interests. Yet, if we pay attention, she is there. She is still there, calling for us to listen and follow her to justice and to truth.

Wisdom tells me I need to slow down... not rush through what I'm trying to say and end up not making it clear what I mean. consider that the person I'm talking to is not inside my head and doesn't really know what I'm talking about or thinking about when I say the words that come out of my mouth. I know that I rush sometimes, and make assumptions. I can see and hear it happen as it's happening and still I do nothing to correct it. Does that make me stupid or lazy? Uncaring and self centred... What does it make me? When I don't take the time, when I don't stop making assumtions and it hurts those I care about; hurts the one that gives my life meaning and purpose, and I"m still foolish and thoughtless enough to allow it to continue how can I do anything other than detest what I'm doing and what I have become? Goddess, through these thoughts and words; as we work through these day, grant me the ability to change, to grow, to share, to speak, to listen and to show as I love.

Can I not even listen to myself?