My Own Obstacle
Dec. 7th, 2011 08:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
When I came upon the mountain I was in a hurry.
Monday 5th
I struggled and I struggled with this one, because I wanted to be honest, but I really couldn't connect with the entry, and then it hit me. I am my own obstacle... and mostly because of my own sense of hurry. I'm always in a rush as if I worry that I haven't got time to get everything out, to get everything said that needs to be said... to do what needs to be done, so in the end what happens is everything comes out confused, and unclear, and the things I do are only half done, or done only enough as to be done – not done well. I want to get everything said, everything told, everything done, and in my haste I do none of those things.
I need to take a breath.
I would rather I took time to tell of things, so that what I'm saying makes better sense – so that /all/ the information is there, not just parts. I would rather that happened than continuing to make assumptions that people know what I'm talking about when they're missing half of the information.
And making sure that what I do gets done properly... well that's important. We used to jokingly call my dad 'Half A Job Bob' because he would start something, and then never finish it. I don’t like to think that I am or could become like that. I want to make sure that the things I do are done properly – completely.
So yes... I need to take a breath – I need to stand on that mountain slope and take in a lung full of the clear and clearing air, and use it to empower better communication – completion of those things I have begun.
Pursue the obstacle.
It will set you free.
When I came upon the mountain I was in a hurry.
Monday 5th
I struggled and I struggled with this one, because I wanted to be honest, but I really couldn't connect with the entry, and then it hit me. I am my own obstacle... and mostly because of my own sense of hurry. I'm always in a rush as if I worry that I haven't got time to get everything out, to get everything said that needs to be said... to do what needs to be done, so in the end what happens is everything comes out confused, and unclear, and the things I do are only half done, or done only enough as to be done – not done well. I want to get everything said, everything told, everything done, and in my haste I do none of those things.
I need to take a breath.
I would rather I took time to tell of things, so that what I'm saying makes better sense – so that /all/ the information is there, not just parts. I would rather that happened than continuing to make assumptions that people know what I'm talking about when they're missing half of the information.
And making sure that what I do gets done properly... well that's important. We used to jokingly call my dad 'Half A Job Bob' because he would start something, and then never finish it. I don’t like to think that I am or could become like that. I want to make sure that the things I do are done properly – completely.
So yes... I need to take a breath – I need to stand on that mountain slope and take in a lung full of the clear and clearing air, and use it to empower better communication – completion of those things I have begun.
