Pledges to Self
Nov. 13th, 2011 07:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
This means staying committed to your inner path. This means not separating from yourself when things get tough or confusing. This means accepting and embracing your faults and limitations. It means loving yourself no matter how others see you. It means cherishing the unchangeable radiance that lives within you, no matter the cuts and bruises along the way. It means binding your life with a solemn pledge to the truth of your soul.
When I woke up this morning I had little nervous squirrels in my tummy. I knew that I was going to turn on the computer and have news from Cairo… and when I got up and went downstairs without turning on the computer, I knew that I was running away from myself… now… I'm not saying I don't want to do this when I say that. I'm just using it to illustrate the first of these things, that I am self aware enough to know that when things get to be tough, difficult, confusing or a little scary… I delay – I run around being busy. I'm trying not to. I'm trying to stay true and strong to myself. (So yes, I went back upstairs and turned on the computer – and received the news that I fly on Tuesday.) The squirrels didn't go away, but I was being true to myself.
I've done too much of that running away in the past, and made a pledge to myself that there would be no more running… I wouldn't say that this was a test of that – more an opportunity to accept, to embrace limitations that I may not even know yet.
One thing I do have trouble with is loving myself. I wouldn't be so insecure if I didn't have trouble with it, maybe part of what I need it to remember to love myself every now and then. I don't know how I might ask for or receive help with that. It's not that I hate myself either, don't think that. I just – maybe that I'm too hard on myself.
Being true to who we are
means carrying our spirit like a candle in the center of our darkness.
This means staying committed to your inner path. This means not separating from yourself when things get tough or confusing. This means accepting and embracing your faults and limitations. It means loving yourself no matter how others see you. It means cherishing the unchangeable radiance that lives within you, no matter the cuts and bruises along the way. It means binding your life with a solemn pledge to the truth of your soul.
When I woke up this morning I had little nervous squirrels in my tummy. I knew that I was going to turn on the computer and have news from Cairo… and when I got up and went downstairs without turning on the computer, I knew that I was running away from myself… now… I'm not saying I don't want to do this when I say that. I'm just using it to illustrate the first of these things, that I am self aware enough to know that when things get to be tough, difficult, confusing or a little scary… I delay – I run around being busy. I'm trying not to. I'm trying to stay true and strong to myself. (So yes, I went back upstairs and turned on the computer – and received the news that I fly on Tuesday.) The squirrels didn't go away, but I was being true to myself.
I've done too much of that running away in the past, and made a pledge to myself that there would be no more running… I wouldn't say that this was a test of that – more an opportunity to accept, to embrace limitations that I may not even know yet.
One thing I do have trouble with is loving myself. I wouldn't be so insecure if I didn't have trouble with it, maybe part of what I need it to remember to love myself every now and then. I don't know how I might ask for or receive help with that. It's not that I hate myself either, don't think that. I just – maybe that I'm too hard on myself.
