Broken Puzzle
Oct. 21st, 2011 07:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
…each day shows us what a piece or two is for, where it might go, how it might fit. Over time, a picture starts to emerge by which we begin to understand our place in the world.
I am tired and I need the box lid to help – because it seems that no matter which piece I put where, even if they 'fit' the picture is never right… not quite… and I just can't deal any more. Pardon me, just having a moment. Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.
I put in one piece and another piece somewhere else falls out. Oh sure, I try to stay positive, and not let things grab my ankles and drag me down into the dark where I haven't even got a hope of seeing the picture I'm supposed to be making… the understanding… my place in the world.
Okay, I know that actually being tired (as in not feeling rested), and thereby hangs another tale, doesn't help with feeling quite so down, and neither does not feeling well, but it can't all be down to that, right?
I've asked for help, to guide me in a way to fix my brokenness, several times, in several different ways – but no one knows how… I just have to keep on muddling through, sorting my own pieces from everyone else's… trying to put the picture together, but I'm notoriously bad at puzzles… So, I'm just sitting here with a whole bunch of puzzle pieces and still have no idea how to put them together, because want and need keep shifting the picture into two different things, and somewhere between the two I've gotten trapped. I can feel those fingers around my ankles tightening even now.
We come with all these parts
and no instructions how they go together.
…each day shows us what a piece or two is for, where it might go, how it might fit. Over time, a picture starts to emerge by which we begin to understand our place in the world.
I am tired and I need the box lid to help – because it seems that no matter which piece I put where, even if they 'fit' the picture is never right… not quite… and I just can't deal any more. Pardon me, just having a moment. Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.
I put in one piece and another piece somewhere else falls out. Oh sure, I try to stay positive, and not let things grab my ankles and drag me down into the dark where I haven't even got a hope of seeing the picture I'm supposed to be making… the understanding… my place in the world.
Okay, I know that actually being tired (as in not feeling rested), and thereby hangs another tale, doesn't help with feeling quite so down, and neither does not feeling well, but it can't all be down to that, right?
I've asked for help, to guide me in a way to fix my brokenness, several times, in several different ways – but no one knows how… I just have to keep on muddling through, sorting my own pieces from everyone else's… trying to put the picture together, but I'm notoriously bad at puzzles… So, I'm just sitting here with a whole bunch of puzzle pieces and still have no idea how to put them together, because want and need keep shifting the picture into two different things, and somewhere between the two I've gotten trapped. I can feel those fingers around my ankles tightening even now.
