Even When I Get It Wrong.
Oct. 20th, 2011 02:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
…and [God], perplexed, replied, “I tried."
It's my mantra it seems… or seems to have become that way. The thing is, my ego won't allow me to mention a thing until after it's done, and that becomes a problem, because all those time that I try and fall flat on my arse, it never gets mentioned, and therefore it never gets recognised.
But every once in a while, I'd like to be acknowledged for the effort – whatever that effort might be… even if it's only by myself and no one else… because how can I expect anyone to acknowledge what I've kept to myself for fear of failure.
I need to be able to pick myself up, dust myself off and say – "Well, Eirian, you fucked that up, didn't you, but you tried. Well done!"
We don’t let go into trust
until we’ve exhausted our egos.
--Rob Lehman
…and [God], perplexed, replied, “I tried."
It's my mantra it seems… or seems to have become that way. The thing is, my ego won't allow me to mention a thing until after it's done, and that becomes a problem, because all those time that I try and fall flat on my arse, it never gets mentioned, and therefore it never gets recognised.
But every once in a while, I'd like to be acknowledged for the effort – whatever that effort might be… even if it's only by myself and no one else… because how can I expect anyone to acknowledge what I've kept to myself for fear of failure.
I need to be able to pick myself up, dust myself off and say – "Well, Eirian, you fucked that up, didn't you, but you tried. Well done!"
