The Fog of Being Apart
Oct. 18th, 2011 04:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Being human, we all have fogs roll in around our heart, and often, our lives depend on the quiet courage to wait for them to clear.
I am lost in a fog right now… as I type this. Oh, I know the reason for it, and I know that it will pass, but right now I feel heavy with it; wet with the droplets of it as it weighs me down – the fog of separation from love and home; from my guy, from my babies, from everything that moves my heart to beat.
No one that has not been in this position can even begin to understand how it means that I can be lonely even though I'm surrounded by people that love and care about me; how it turns an ordinary day into an uphill climb, or how one cross or even vaguely sharp or dismissive word from anyone – everyone – can crush what little resolve I have almost completely.
And I would wish this understanding on anyone either – because it means that they are where I am now.
To be near something beautiful or precious but
to be unable to experience it is the subtlest
possible form of torture.
--Robert Johnson
Being human, we all have fogs roll in around our heart, and often, our lives depend on the quiet courage to wait for them to clear.
I am lost in a fog right now… as I type this. Oh, I know the reason for it, and I know that it will pass, but right now I feel heavy with it; wet with the droplets of it as it weighs me down – the fog of separation from love and home; from my guy, from my babies, from everything that moves my heart to beat.
No one that has not been in this position can even begin to understand how it means that I can be lonely even though I'm surrounded by people that love and care about me; how it turns an ordinary day into an uphill climb, or how one cross or even vaguely sharp or dismissive word from anyone – everyone – can crush what little resolve I have almost completely.
And I would wish this understanding on anyone either – because it means that they are where I am now.
