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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
When we push ourselves to unfold faster or more deeply than is natural, we thwart ourselves. For nature takes time, and most of our problems of will stem from impatience.
I'm starting to think this is my problem with seeming stuck on what I'm doing and where I'm going with Use'ara I set myself a deadline (which I know I'm not going to meet), and I keep on pushing and pushing myself to try. Because of all this trying I'm tying myself in knots. I have my treatment, apart from Nik's section of it which may or may not end up having a great deal of bearing on the treatment so far, so I have no reason to be floundering.
I'm working through a system that will help with finalizing Nik's part of the overarching story, and it's proving immensely helpful, but there in the back of my mind is the little devil that sits on my shoulder and tells me that doing it that way is procrastinating. The angel on the other side tells me it's necessary procrastination, because without it I can't possibly hope to get everything settled in its place… the plot just won't make sense.
Still, I keep on pushing myself to get everything done, to meet the deadline that I don't have a hope in hell of meeting, and under the pressure of all of that, I end up getting nothing done at all. The obvious solution would be to let go, to just let things happen as they will, but… that's easier said than done.
For the flower, it is fully open
At each step of its blossoming.
When we push ourselves to unfold faster or more deeply than is natural, we thwart ourselves. For nature takes time, and most of our problems of will stem from impatience.
I'm starting to think this is my problem with seeming stuck on what I'm doing and where I'm going with Use'ara I set myself a deadline (which I know I'm not going to meet), and I keep on pushing and pushing myself to try. Because of all this trying I'm tying myself in knots. I have my treatment, apart from Nik's section of it which may or may not end up having a great deal of bearing on the treatment so far, so I have no reason to be floundering.
I'm working through a system that will help with finalizing Nik's part of the overarching story, and it's proving immensely helpful, but there in the back of my mind is the little devil that sits on my shoulder and tells me that doing it that way is procrastinating. The angel on the other side tells me it's necessary procrastination, because without it I can't possibly hope to get everything settled in its place… the plot just won't make sense.
Still, I keep on pushing myself to get everything done, to meet the deadline that I don't have a hope in hell of meeting, and under the pressure of all of that, I end up getting nothing done at all. The obvious solution would be to let go, to just let things happen as they will, but… that's easier said than done.
