It's About Personalising Again
Jul. 11th, 2011 07:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Our challenge is to remember that the wave is not the sea.
This is something that I'm slowly coming to grips with… this is something that is a constant and total fear for me, not because of where I am now, but because of where I have been. When someone gets angry and frustrated, even if it is not at me, I will personalise and internalise it until I end up chasing my tail and making myself quite ill. When someone is frustrated and angry at me – you can forget it. I will go into full on self destruct mode… unless I catch myself first.
As such I often make mountains out of mole hills as the saying goes, make a big deal out of the odd cross word of frustration or whatever other motivation. I'm getting better at not doing that, I think, but I'd still say I have a long way to go. I still take things too personally sometimes, unless I really work on not doing that, and not getting offended… and I worry sometimes that things that have nothing to do with me are all my fault.
When under, remember the surface.
When on the surface, remember the deep.
Our challenge is to remember that the wave is not the sea.
This is something that I'm slowly coming to grips with… this is something that is a constant and total fear for me, not because of where I am now, but because of where I have been. When someone gets angry and frustrated, even if it is not at me, I will personalise and internalise it until I end up chasing my tail and making myself quite ill. When someone is frustrated and angry at me – you can forget it. I will go into full on self destruct mode… unless I catch myself first.
As such I often make mountains out of mole hills as the saying goes, make a big deal out of the odd cross word of frustration or whatever other motivation. I'm getting better at not doing that, I think, but I'd still say I have a long way to go. I still take things too personally sometimes, unless I really work on not doing that, and not getting offended… and I worry sometimes that things that have nothing to do with me are all my fault.
