Doing What I Needed To Do.
May. 16th, 2011 11:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
There is no authority to bless our need to enter life but the God within.
To me, this says that we are the ones that must give ourselves the 'permission' to do as we need to live... be a part of life.
We were in petsmart... there was one little rattie all by himself, as often happens in that store. Normally (though only ever playfully, because I hate to see them lonely by themselves just as Mir does too), I would turn to Mir and tell her, "No, we don't have anywhere for him to go." This time tables were turned. I was the one that pointed out that we had a spare cage - a tray table for the cage. We spent part of the journey to the airport trying to figure out what we would call him if we got him... and after running through a host of possible names, both independently came up with one we both liked... it was decided that if we got him that would be his name.
The airport was packed... and both of us hopefully thought, and voiced, that this might mean that the plane was full... that I'd be able to stay another week. Turns out that it's because, with the newer part of the terminal taking in more flights and airlines (presumably moving over from terminal 1), there were more people in terminal 2. I got to go through the new body scanner though - that was exciting... something different. The point though is that I gave myself permission to allow for the possibility - marched right up to the desk at the gate and told them, if they needed anyone to volunteer, I could do that. I had family here, so had a place to stay. The gate agent was nice about it, and said that while they were full, they weren't oversold, so they didn't need volunteers. I'd be prepared to bet she thought I was bonkers or something, but I really don't care. It was what I needed to say and do.
And then the day came
when the risk to remain
tight in a bud was
more painful than the
risk to bloom.
-Anais Nin
There is no authority to bless our need to enter life but the God within.
To me, this says that we are the ones that must give ourselves the 'permission' to do as we need to live... be a part of life.
We were in petsmart... there was one little rattie all by himself, as often happens in that store. Normally (though only ever playfully, because I hate to see them lonely by themselves just as Mir does too), I would turn to Mir and tell her, "No, we don't have anywhere for him to go." This time tables were turned. I was the one that pointed out that we had a spare cage - a tray table for the cage. We spent part of the journey to the airport trying to figure out what we would call him if we got him... and after running through a host of possible names, both independently came up with one we both liked... it was decided that if we got him that would be his name.
The airport was packed... and both of us hopefully thought, and voiced, that this might mean that the plane was full... that I'd be able to stay another week. Turns out that it's because, with the newer part of the terminal taking in more flights and airlines (presumably moving over from terminal 1), there were more people in terminal 2. I got to go through the new body scanner though - that was exciting... something different. The point though is that I gave myself permission to allow for the possibility - marched right up to the desk at the gate and told them, if they needed anyone to volunteer, I could do that. I had family here, so had a place to stay. The gate agent was nice about it, and said that while they were full, they weren't oversold, so they didn't need volunteers. I'd be prepared to bet she thought I was bonkers or something, but I really don't care. It was what I needed to say and do.
