Mother or Father Bear

[cedar_grove]

From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.

As it does no good to harvest if we can't eat
it does not good to act if we can't feel

We need both male and female energies to drink fully of life.

You see all these stupid things like, who's the best driver, male or female, or who's the messiest guys or girls...? You know the kind of things I'm talking about, I'm sure.

Who's the most protective, men or women, and what does that mean exactly? Am I wondering purely about the physical or am I including the spiritual and emotional in all of that as well? And how exactly does a person protect another? Does it mean beating up on someone else that is threatening whomever or whatever you are protecting, or does it mean steering the protectee out of harms way?

I don't have answers to these questions, they're just things that I'm wondering right now, things that are on my mind.

Another bunch of things I have on my mind right now, specifically and painfully pointed right now, the distinction between Justice and vengeance. Between humanity and inhumanity and what it means - overall - to be the bigger man and rise above other wrongdoers... where is the difference between doing what is necessary and crossing a line. Just what is the nature of Evil (and yes, it's capitalised for a reason), and what happens to us if we allow it to touch us, worse, to move us.

At the moment I'm having a good deal or trouble finding a sense of empathy for the human race, or which I'm a part. Man's 'inhumanity to man' is getting me down, and I mean that on a large as well as a small scale). The best I can say right now is that I pity us... which isn't really very good at all.

I could say that these feelings come from Universal Mother and Father figures, looking on their children and despairing the point to which they've come - except that these feelings are coming from inside of me.

Dance in the streets all you wish, brothers and sister, but - as Teyla so succinctly put it in the episode of Stargate: Atlantis that I hate so much:

Unfortunately there will be somebody else to take his place. Of this I am certain.

Comments

[mirrani.livejournal.com]

Next time I'm hurting I'll make sure I hide it from you the way I had been doing. That way you won't have to worry about any of this sympathy stuff, like you were trying to tell me in the doctor's office.

[cedargrove.livejournal.com]

No, I WANT you to tell me and to show me and to be honest with me the way I'm trying to do with you, the way we began out on our relationship and the way I want it to continue. I will always worry about that because it hurts in my mother and like /you/ I don't want to be like my mother, (in this one thing at least.)

I said what I said because I was being honest about a thing I'd noticed about myself, and something I don't like. That was all.