Intimidating? Me?
Apr. 3rd, 2011 10:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
It remains important to reach out and to express oneself, but underneath that is the need to be porous and real. Through the opened heart, the world come rushing in, the way oceans fill the smallest hole along the shore. It is the quietest sort of miracle: by simply being who we are, the world will come to fill us, to cleanse us, to baptize us, again and again.
I tried to reach out to some people today, simply being myself, and have ended up very very hurt indeed. The details are not really important, (apart from the fact that they've confused me), just that when something like this happens, it makes you feel... disinclined to open your heart to others - to let others in.
It's taken a while to get to the realisation that I can't just lay down and let that happen. Probably because I'm feeling so vulnerable anyway right now... and also feel stupid for getting upset.
I should just shrug it of, and say 'whatever' I know.
Life loud enough in your heart
and there is no need to speak.
It remains important to reach out and to express oneself, but underneath that is the need to be porous and real. Through the opened heart, the world come rushing in, the way oceans fill the smallest hole along the shore. It is the quietest sort of miracle: by simply being who we are, the world will come to fill us, to cleanse us, to baptize us, again and again.
I tried to reach out to some people today, simply being myself, and have ended up very very hurt indeed. The details are not really important, (apart from the fact that they've confused me), just that when something like this happens, it makes you feel... disinclined to open your heart to others - to let others in.
It's taken a while to get to the realisation that I can't just lay down and let that happen. Probably because I'm feeling so vulnerable anyway right now... and also feel stupid for getting upset.
I should just shrug it of, and say 'whatever' I know.
