The Big Picture

Goddess, we know you by so many names:
Ceres, mother of the harvest, you who in the joy
of finding your lost daughter gave a new diet
to our forebears, no longer acorns to eat but
nourishing bread raised in fertile soil; and Venus,
inventor of that clever way of luring us to procreation;
and Artemis, the physician who eases women's birthing pains;
and Proserpine to whom the owl cries in the night.
We have many names for you, and all
are your true names. We have many rituals
for you, and all are your true rituals.
There is no end to you, goddess, heaven's queen.

--Apuleius, The Golden Ass

The goddess, who could turn a deaf ear to her children's cries, had to be encouraged to show her more beneficent side.

This is something that bugs the ever living doo out of me... not just with Goddess spirituality, but with any maybe even every spirituality. This notion that the divine power turns deaf to the pleas of his or her children, and must therefore be placated with prayers and supplications to make him or her comply with our needs.

Grrrr. Just grrrr! As a part of life we do not see the bigger picture. It is therefore somewhat selfish to assume that our wants and our needs should be catered for, just because we want that... or maybe not selfish, but self centered... like the children that we are, I suppose. Okay I can go along with that... I can calm down with that one a little bit, but still... if we cannot see the bigger picture we cannot see the piece of the Universal puzzle that we are that might require that we face x, y and z in order to reach a once more - since all life happens in a circle.

No it doesn't necessarily mean that I find it any easier than the next person facing all the things that life sends my way. Doesn't mean I don't have those moment of 'why me' that people get, or moments of, 'I deserve this because of how I have been.' All of these things still are a part of me, because hey, I'm only human, but maybe knowing that everything that happens is part of a bigger picture helps to give me strength to know that it will all be all right in the end... maybe?

Maybe... but not right now.

Right now I'm suffering a moment of being very very human and railing against everything that is going on in my life, and in the lives of those around me whom I love and care for. If this makes me hypocritical then so be it.