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In With The New
May. 26th, 2011 11:54 pmFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
When feeling the sharpness of being sad or hurt, it helps to take new things in. This pours the water of life on the fire of the heart.
This might be good advice, but it's a very hard thing to do, because when I'm sad, the last thing I feel like doing is starting something new. I'm a wallower, I'll confess. I know this isn't a good thing, but I can't help it. When my heart hurts, my impetus to do anything just goes out of the window until the sadness passes.
I try not to let sadness get to me, but that too is hard when I am away from the person I love, and missing her deeply; when I am away from the babies, and unable to help care for them, and look after them when they're sick… like some of them are now. When I leave, knowing it's unlikely I'll see them again, it's a wrench, and I end up waiting for the message or the call that will tell me they're gone.
It all makes embracing the new… that much harder.
I am excited though, about the projects that Mir and I are starting together – and still excited for this one as well. I've been digging around in my planning file for activities and things… kind of nervous too, but not it a bad way – I've seen Mir teach, (and btw, in case you wondered, she's brilliant) – and now it's her turn to see me too, first hand. I just hope I'm good enough for her.
The best thing for being sad, replied Merlin, is to learn something.
--T.H. White
When feeling the sharpness of being sad or hurt, it helps to take new things in. This pours the water of life on the fire of the heart.
This might be good advice, but it's a very hard thing to do, because when I'm sad, the last thing I feel like doing is starting something new. I'm a wallower, I'll confess. I know this isn't a good thing, but I can't help it. When my heart hurts, my impetus to do anything just goes out of the window until the sadness passes.
I try not to let sadness get to me, but that too is hard when I am away from the person I love, and missing her deeply; when I am away from the babies, and unable to help care for them, and look after them when they're sick… like some of them are now. When I leave, knowing it's unlikely I'll see them again, it's a wrench, and I end up waiting for the message or the call that will tell me they're gone.
It all makes embracing the new… that much harder.
I am excited though, about the projects that Mir and I are starting together – and still excited for this one as well. I've been digging around in my planning file for activities and things… kind of nervous too, but not it a bad way – I've seen Mir teach, (and btw, in case you wondered, she's brilliant) – and now it's her turn to see me too, first hand. I just hope I'm good enough for her.
