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The Origami Experience
Apr. 13th, 2011 06:24 pmFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Still, the expression - whether misunderstood, well received, or rejected - matters. For the cost of not making the call is that a piece of us dies.
In principle, I agree with this - yes... because I stopped expressing myself for such a long time and pretty much became an emotional undead... (which makes me want to watch The Mummy again, sorry, so inappropriate), but it goes back to this ability to be brave enough, or to trust enough to be able to open your mouth in the first place, because the rejections and misunderstandings can be - and I do say can be, though they don't always have to be - just as costly.
After the man in question beat me down with deliberate rejections (in many cases now I realise uncalled for), I gave up, for the most part, ended up in a terribly fragile state where the littlest thing made me just fold in one corner after another until finally I was nothing but a screwed up ball of paper.
It's taken a long time and a lot of help to unscrew, but now - with all the patient love Mir's given - and I know at time that I can be a frustrating bugger at best, when I lapse, especially - I feel free, I feel empowered to be myself again...and that really is a beautiful gift.
Just by speaking I can break out of my
self-made prison.
-June Singer
Still, the expression - whether misunderstood, well received, or rejected - matters. For the cost of not making the call is that a piece of us dies.
In principle, I agree with this - yes... because I stopped expressing myself for such a long time and pretty much became an emotional undead... (which makes me want to watch The Mummy again, sorry, so inappropriate), but it goes back to this ability to be brave enough, or to trust enough to be able to open your mouth in the first place, because the rejections and misunderstandings can be - and I do say can be, though they don't always have to be - just as costly.
After the man in question beat me down with deliberate rejections (in many cases now I realise uncalled for), I gave up, for the most part, ended up in a terribly fragile state where the littlest thing made me just fold in one corner after another until finally I was nothing but a screwed up ball of paper.
It's taken a long time and a lot of help to unscrew, but now - with all the patient love Mir's given - and I know at time that I can be a frustrating bugger at best, when I lapse, especially - I feel free, I feel empowered to be myself again...and that really is a beautiful gift.
