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Two More Sleeps
Jul. 13th, 2011 08:32 pmFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Of course, there is nothing inherently wrong with change or variety or newness or with improving our condition.
I feel more myself now that I have in a long time… able to just chill out and be. Of course there are still things that push my buttons and send me running for the hills, but at least these days I'm mostly able to grab myself by the back of the shirt and stop myself before I get too very far away from 'true north.'
And I think… I hope there have been improvements… a return to the closeness and truth and openness that we had in our relationship before I shut down, before… whatever it was happened; whatever defensiveness latched in to take me, like Ariel, away from myself.
This summer I'm looking forward to an 'oldness' not a newness – new experiences to share, sure… and a definite improvement on things we've been struggling with, but, this summer I'm looking forward to being able to be myself again – like I always was.
Right now, I have to stay I'm intrigued by this 'surprise' Mir has got together. A surprise we can share while still being able to read together… a surprise that is made up of several parts… that she's been gathering. It's all very intriguing, very exciting. It's like… is it Friday yet?
I would do anything for you.
Would you be yourself?
Of course, there is nothing inherently wrong with change or variety or newness or with improving our condition.
I feel more myself now that I have in a long time… able to just chill out and be. Of course there are still things that push my buttons and send me running for the hills, but at least these days I'm mostly able to grab myself by the back of the shirt and stop myself before I get too very far away from 'true north.'
And I think… I hope there have been improvements… a return to the closeness and truth and openness that we had in our relationship before I shut down, before… whatever it was happened; whatever defensiveness latched in to take me, like Ariel, away from myself.
This summer I'm looking forward to an 'oldness' not a newness – new experiences to share, sure… and a definite improvement on things we've been struggling with, but, this summer I'm looking forward to being able to be myself again – like I always was.
Right now, I have to stay I'm intrigued by this 'surprise' Mir has got together. A surprise we can share while still being able to read together… a surprise that is made up of several parts… that she's been gathering. It's all very intriguing, very exciting. It's like… is it Friday yet?
