Proof of the Divine

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At the world's beginning
there was a mother.
All beginnings partake
of that mother's energy.

To know this world,
first know the mother.
Then, go forth and learn
to know the world.

Then go back to her. Go back
and hold fast to her.
Hold fast to the mother, and
you will never be in danger.

--Chinese Tao te Ching

Studying this world and studying ourselves, is the only way we can truly learn to know the goddess... We ourselves participate in the divine fminine. Whether make or female, we each hold her within ourselves.

Seeing the divine, and particularly the divine feminine in the world around us seems to me to be an easy thing to do. It's in the creativity of nature... the cyclical turn of the year - female things seem to me to be circular - and of course in the waxing and waning of the moon, long held as a manifestation of the Goddess. I've been thinking about this all day - for some stupid reason, even though I was exhausted when I went to bed, I didn't sleep very well, and woke up way too early - as I've been doing my chores around the house, cleaning, laundry, listening to the songs of the birds and the laughter of children outside, it all speaks to me of the presence of the goddess.

Seeing the divine in ourselves, divine feminine or divine masculine, it doesn't really matter which - is by far the harder. Beyond the obvious times, when we as women bleed or breed, (sorry to put it that way, but - well no actually, I'm not. Live with it), in what ways can we exersise that creativity and love which, to me, is revealing of the presence of the divine within? Is it in the reflection we see in others?

I spoke, some time ago now about a necklace that Mir gave me, with a heart on it, only partly covered with little red gems, the other heart just the precious metal of the mount. She gave it to me saying 'Half my heart to make yours whole' which, for those of you that knows the Movie Dragonheart, you'll know that's where it came from. In this case, not a dragon's heart to make mine whole, but the heart of my love... who holds a half of mine in trust in return. Together we are whole; one... god and goddess, male and female - together. Yesterday, and still today, I feel this. I mean, I feel it all the time, there inside of me, wrapped around me, shielding me and giving me the strength to go through my day. Yesterday though it was close to the surface, and brought closer still by some incredibly romantic words, and deeds and thoughts that my wonderful guy gave me... gave to the world really. I read them, yesterday and today and am moved to tears by their depth, their verity and just by the way then make me feel. There is divinity, right there, in that love... given and reflected.

So if you don't like the way you look, the size of your nose, the cut and colour of your hair - whatever it is that you think is 'wrong' with you, that makes you feel less than worthy, less than divine - only remember that. Remember love.