To Melt and Change Shape
Dec. 3rd, 2011 04:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Living up to a dream is rarely as important as entering it for all it has to teach.
Thursday 1st
When I was younger I wanted to be an actress. I did a lot of things as an amateur, and eventually took A-level theatre studies, and even auditioned for several drama schools, but ultimately it didn't happen. It taught me that the profession is a lot harder than most people think it is, and one has to really persevere to get anywhere.
Thinking about it now though, I wonder how much of that was an expression of my desire for creativity, or more accurately for an expression of the creativity that exists inside me, because now of course, there is the writing that I do... that has kind of taken over as the 'dream' I aim for.
I tried to do NaNo this year, but real life circumstances were not conducive to finishing the challenge, but that doesn't mean the dream of getting Use'ara finished and published is gone, just... changed. Creativity can't be forced, and if I had kept going regardless of everything else, I think the novel would have suffered. It is better that I stopped until such time as I can give it the attention it deserves. The nature of the dream still exists, it has just changed... become more patient. So it won't be ready for Christmas, as was my original dream (way back before NaNo...), but eventually it will be ready – and all the better for it's 'new shape.'
Dreams are candles
to help us through the dark.
Once used, they have to melt.
Living up to a dream is rarely as important as entering it for all it has to teach.
Thursday 1st
When I was younger I wanted to be an actress. I did a lot of things as an amateur, and eventually took A-level theatre studies, and even auditioned for several drama schools, but ultimately it didn't happen. It taught me that the profession is a lot harder than most people think it is, and one has to really persevere to get anywhere.
Thinking about it now though, I wonder how much of that was an expression of my desire for creativity, or more accurately for an expression of the creativity that exists inside me, because now of course, there is the writing that I do... that has kind of taken over as the 'dream' I aim for.
I tried to do NaNo this year, but real life circumstances were not conducive to finishing the challenge, but that doesn't mean the dream of getting Use'ara finished and published is gone, just... changed. Creativity can't be forced, and if I had kept going regardless of everything else, I think the novel would have suffered. It is better that I stopped until such time as I can give it the attention it deserves. The nature of the dream still exists, it has just changed... become more patient. So it won't be ready for Christmas, as was my original dream (way back before NaNo...), but eventually it will be ready – and all the better for it's 'new shape.'
