Break a Cycle and Return to Love

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From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.

Wherever we stop is the summit.

Despite all our noble efforts to reach some treasured peak-be it a dream of wealth or love-we carry the summit within.

Monday 21st
Day two with my class and I'm trying not to be frustrated with all the things that people are asking for while I'm still trying to build that relationship with the children, so that they start working in the way they need to work. I know it's just a case of needing to draw on the teaching experience of the last 15 years – so that is what I'm doing. Behaviour management is the top priority, as is reorganising the class seating to make that easier. Some of the groupings are too large for the children's level of maturity to start with – and I need a place where I can 'isolate' those children that choose not to follow the classroom code of behaviour and expectations of working.

Turning to adjusting to life here, I know this is not exactly inside of myself, but I have to say that I couldn't do any of it if it wasn't for my wonderful guy. A lifeline, and a support, giving so much love that I'm just soaking up right now – to my shame without showing much myself – I don't know how I would survive without Mir and our love; without the things she reminds me of, which I'm not been thinking of because I'm still stuck in a cycle of negativity. I love her so very much. I need to stand on my feet so that I can show the truth of the love I have for her, and how much our love means to me.

Comments

[traveler64.livejournal.com]

Oh, so glad things are beginning to look up! I knew that this will turn your way, the change is huge so have patience. It will work out, of that I am sure. I was concerned as I was reading your posts (all at once since I was gone for 10 days and off the grid), but now I see improvement. Just have patience with yourself, mkay? :)