Mrs Fixit!

[cedar_grove]

From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.

Just as the warmth of summer
can make a cricket sing,
the quality of being held
enlivens the heart.

Frequently, this reflex to solve, rescue, and fix removes us from the tenderness at hand. For often, intimacy arises not from any attempt to take the pain away, but from a living through together; not from a working out, but from a being with. Trust and closeness depend from holding and being held, both emotionally and physically.

I am this reflex… honestly I can totally relate to this, because this is what I do all the time. It's not necessarily that I want to, just… if there's a problem – I will try to solve it. I will try to fix what I see if broken, I will try to rescue what is lost… and the stupid thing… I know deep inside me that this is not the best thing to do, or the best way to be.

It's an impulse I've been trying very hard not to give in to all the time. Of course it's very hard to live through things together when you're thousands of miles apart, so sometimes the 'living through together' and the 'solving problems' reflex has a very fine line between one and the other.

I think a most recent example of this fine line at work was when Mir was planning to go to the convention in Pernickety but was worried about Samantha being by herself. She mentioned in passing that the Hilton there was a pet friendly hotel, and that she could take her along too – and I immediately searched the internet to see if there was an vet's surgery nearby with a small/exotic pet specialist (which there is, btw, just for future reference). I wasn't trying to solve the problem for her of what to do with Samantha while she was away, but giving her additional information – being a part of her dilemma with her.

I'm hoping to have a greater shift to this kind of sharing more and more in the future, instead of trying to be a one woman superman and fix everything… especially when it doesn't need fixing at all.

Comments

[mirrani.livejournal.com]

I was so relieved to know you had done that, checking for Samantha... I really think I still could have gone up to New York.. and I probably should have, even without Autumn there and all that.. but really, I think it was for the best I didn't... between the rats and what was going on with my skin stuff... Yeah.

But to hear that you had jumped the gun, done the research and came back saying there was a vet there.. that was amazing and really warmed my heart in a very bad time.

[cedargrove.livejournal.com]

I'm just glad I could do that for you. :*