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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Yet the instant we can accept what is not in our nature, rather than being distracted by all we think we could or should be, then all our inner resources are free to transform us into the particular self we are aching to be.
The last couple of weeks have been ones which have been holding that truth up in front of my face. Faced with the things I could not do, and could not be, it's as if a part of me has woken up to that, and instead of fighting and screwing up the whole time, I've just…become what I am, warts and all, as we say over here.
Faced with the reality of the loss – however temporary – of a substantial amount of money I've done what I can, signed what forms I needed to and have just surrendered to the reality of the way things are for now. Yes, it's made a bunch of other difficulties but, those two, I have accepted with what grace I have remaining.
It's like the other day – Friday, when I was able to finally make the flight booking that the lost funds where to have paid for the week before, because it was closer to the time of flying and for some stupid reason, business-persons accept ridiculous price hikes for last minute bookings (and bear in mind the airlines consider 'last minute' to mean anything up to the month before), all the prices jumped. It wasn't until I threw up my hands and said, "I can't do this!" in tears of frustration, that my browser returned a flight I had been searching for – not exactly the one I had wanted, but… one that fit.
So yes – the lesson, stop pushing against what you can't do and accept what is has been hammering me over the head for a couple of weeks now. Do I feel better for the lesson – no not really; do I accept it for what is? How can I do otherwise?
A little fish story.
The instant fish accept that they will never have arms, they grow fins.
Yet the instant we can accept what is not in our nature, rather than being distracted by all we think we could or should be, then all our inner resources are free to transform us into the particular self we are aching to be.
The last couple of weeks have been ones which have been holding that truth up in front of my face. Faced with the things I could not do, and could not be, it's as if a part of me has woken up to that, and instead of fighting and screwing up the whole time, I've just…become what I am, warts and all, as we say over here.
Faced with the reality of the loss – however temporary – of a substantial amount of money I've done what I can, signed what forms I needed to and have just surrendered to the reality of the way things are for now. Yes, it's made a bunch of other difficulties but, those two, I have accepted with what grace I have remaining.
It's like the other day – Friday, when I was able to finally make the flight booking that the lost funds where to have paid for the week before, because it was closer to the time of flying and for some stupid reason, business-persons accept ridiculous price hikes for last minute bookings (and bear in mind the airlines consider 'last minute' to mean anything up to the month before), all the prices jumped. It wasn't until I threw up my hands and said, "I can't do this!" in tears of frustration, that my browser returned a flight I had been searching for – not exactly the one I had wanted, but… one that fit.
So yes – the lesson, stop pushing against what you can't do and accept what is has been hammering me over the head for a couple of weeks now. Do I feel better for the lesson – no not really; do I accept it for what is? How can I do otherwise?
