Living With Scepticism
Apr. 23rd, 2011 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
If we could only suspend our judgment when clouded in the heart. For many skepticism are born from conclusions drawn while unable to see...
(From 19th April)
Tuesday was such a busy day... and after the tiredness of travel, I kind of managed to frustrate myself with being so busy and therefore not really getting down to the kind of busy that I wanted to be... Oh, it's all relaltive, the kinds of things I was doing were things that needed to be done. We need to eat, (actually I kind of like eating food, it's good for me), so I don't actually mind having been so busy, I suppose it was just lingering tiredness that has made me actually wonder if I will achieve my goal while I'm here and get a good portion of the novel actually written, or will I find other ways to keep myself busy. Will I become lost in the domesticity that I fold around myself while I'm here - I always do it, I want to be a good wife after all, so I set myself lots of things to do around the house, and then end up getting mad at myself because I've not done the other things I want to do. It's a stupid spiral to end up stuck in, so I intend to try and nip it in the bud right away.
What needs to be done, can still get done even if I give myself time to do what I want to do as well. Of course, to look at it another way, since school is closed, the things I want to do are actually those things that might help to supplement my income. Must, should, could become all kinds of intermingled that way.
The bud in half-bloom
outwaits the cloud.
If we could only suspend our judgment when clouded in the heart. For many skepticism are born from conclusions drawn while unable to see...
(From 19th April)
Tuesday was such a busy day... and after the tiredness of travel, I kind of managed to frustrate myself with being so busy and therefore not really getting down to the kind of busy that I wanted to be... Oh, it's all relaltive, the kinds of things I was doing were things that needed to be done. We need to eat, (actually I kind of like eating food, it's good for me), so I don't actually mind having been so busy, I suppose it was just lingering tiredness that has made me actually wonder if I will achieve my goal while I'm here and get a good portion of the novel actually written, or will I find other ways to keep myself busy. Will I become lost in the domesticity that I fold around myself while I'm here - I always do it, I want to be a good wife after all, so I set myself lots of things to do around the house, and then end up getting mad at myself because I've not done the other things I want to do. It's a stupid spiral to end up stuck in, so I intend to try and nip it in the bud right away.
What needs to be done, can still get done even if I give myself time to do what I want to do as well. Of course, to look at it another way, since school is closed, the things I want to do are actually those things that might help to supplement my income. Must, should, could become all kinds of intermingled that way.
