Awake and Alive

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From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.

The deeper the cry,
the more clear the choice.

How do I regain my wonder at being alive? What must I do to keep my heart from sinking?

I guess... at the heart of things this is what I've been struggling with for a long time, this journey to find myself again is really a plea to little to the deeper cry that wants me to find the joy in being alive that used to be so clear but had become muted

But no more...

Mir has been so instrumental in helping me to unclog my inner ears, and hear that voice again, that cry; to feel the sense of spiritual awe that is carried inside.

We were talking yesterday about our mutual desire to do things right, healthwise, to eat right, to exercise, to enjoy living. As she put it, to do things right physically, emotionally, spiritually.

I've noticed more and more though that I've been walking around with my eyes open; noticing the blossoms on the trees and how beautiful they are (and wishing I had a camera, because mine is busted), about how the wind blows just right... or feeling the gentle rain falling...

Which reminds me: last night I had a dream, a simple dream, just walking along hand in hand with Mir in a slight gentle warm rain. It was very peaceful, and loving and alive.

And I'm feeling more alive, more aware... and it feels good.

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Tomorrow we'll walk up to the mailbox. I wish you'd been here today to be out in the yard with me in that rain. That, the sun.. the birds.. it was really amazing.