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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
This cycle of producing troubles and the preparing against them is very much like pulling a thread that really should have been left alone. The more we pull it, the more the fabric unravels, and now we must re-sew it all. Or very much like planning too many things, or committing to too many people in too short a time, and then exhausting yourself and those around you trying to make it all happen.
I am like this... and probably out for feeling not good enough or a desire for approval or recognition I make commitments, not always to others - though sometimes - but most usually to myself.
I made a goal for myself at the beginning of the year, and here we are a quarter of the way through the year, and I am still no closer to achieving it. Why? Because I also made promises and commitments to so many other things, not the least of which, in today's socio-economic climate, the simple need to be able to survive... physically, emotionally and financially.
Yet, knowing that much of it cannot be helped that /those/ commitments must be met to fulfil my own basic needs, doesn't help with the feeling of frustration that... I have pulled a thread, and my fabric is unravelling, and because of that... I feel unsuccessful. I do not feel 'whole.'
But what I need in order to feel this wholeness is something that is elusive at best, because it is also driven by the needs of another for their own 'wholeness.'
The thought of wholeness, and interconnectedness brings to mind the idea of the Andorian bond in Star Trek - four beings bonded in their version of 'marriage' (way oversimplified, but... I hope I'm pardonned for that), where none feels truly whole without the support of their bond. It doesn't mean that we have to agree with one another, or even share the same goals, ambitions or thoughts... but we do need the respect and understanding of our bondmates in order to feel ourselves fulfilled, even in the simplest of things.
Truly, we are all interconnected...
...and I wouldn't have it any other way. :)
To let knowledge produce troubles, and then use knowledge to prepare against them, is like stirring water in hopes of making it clear.
-Lao-tzu
This cycle of producing troubles and the preparing against them is very much like pulling a thread that really should have been left alone. The more we pull it, the more the fabric unravels, and now we must re-sew it all. Or very much like planning too many things, or committing to too many people in too short a time, and then exhausting yourself and those around you trying to make it all happen.
I am like this... and probably out for feeling not good enough or a desire for approval or recognition I make commitments, not always to others - though sometimes - but most usually to myself.
I made a goal for myself at the beginning of the year, and here we are a quarter of the way through the year, and I am still no closer to achieving it. Why? Because I also made promises and commitments to so many other things, not the least of which, in today's socio-economic climate, the simple need to be able to survive... physically, emotionally and financially.
Yet, knowing that much of it cannot be helped that /those/ commitments must be met to fulfil my own basic needs, doesn't help with the feeling of frustration that... I have pulled a thread, and my fabric is unravelling, and because of that... I feel unsuccessful. I do not feel 'whole.'
But what I need in order to feel this wholeness is something that is elusive at best, because it is also driven by the needs of another for their own 'wholeness.'
The thought of wholeness, and interconnectedness brings to mind the idea of the Andorian bond in Star Trek - four beings bonded in their version of 'marriage' (way oversimplified, but... I hope I'm pardonned for that), where none feels truly whole without the support of their bond. It doesn't mean that we have to agree with one another, or even share the same goals, ambitions or thoughts... but we do need the respect and understanding of our bondmates in order to feel ourselves fulfilled, even in the simplest of things.
Truly, we are all interconnected...
...and I wouldn't have it any other way. :)
