Being Slowly
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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Unfortunately, we are all so high-paced, running so fast to where we want to be, that many of us are forced to slow down through illness or breakage. In this, we are such funny creatures. If we could see ourselves from far enough away, we would seem like a colony of insects running into things repeatedly: Thousands of little determined beings butting into obstacles, shaking our little heads and bodies, and running into things again.
I'm put in mind of a computer game that used to be about - whatever happened to it I don't know - where you had to guide the little creatures to all fall off the cliff together or some such thing. As funny as that sounds, it's also very sad and as someone that truly has been running around like a lemming these last few weeks. Doing, doing, doing, tryintg to sort out one thing or another, now that I've had the opportunity - at least in part - to stop a little bit, I realise just how much I have been doing that. How much, as a good friend of mine would say, I've been a 'human doing' rather than a human being.
But truly, it's hard to slow down, when you perceive that you have so much to do... or when your perceptions tell you that if you're not 'doing' something you must be 'being' lazy.
Yesterday, I read half of a book. It was a good thing to do, definitely enjoyable, definitely went part way to recharge the batteries of self... and they do need recharging. I realised I'm exhausted. Oh, not the kind of exhausted where I need to drop into bed and sleep for a week - though the last two days I have been pleasantly tired (as distinctly different from too tired to sleep properly - as I had been before that) - but the kind of exhausted where, if I didn't stop and do something for me, pay some attention to my 'inner child' I was going to explode.
Thankfully, being here, with the woman I love, able to share in things together, experience the things we have in the last few days, together, has allowed me the chance to do that, and I'm embracing it with both hands. A common phrase over the last few days in this house has been, 'We're both movin' real fast' and I don't think that particularly has had anything to do with being lazy, just that we've both been enjoying those moments of inner quiet sharing and togetherness before we move on to the next task that we need to do.
At least for me, that's been the case - and I needed that.
Live slow enough
and there is only the beginning of time.
Unfortunately, we are all so high-paced, running so fast to where we want to be, that many of us are forced to slow down through illness or breakage. In this, we are such funny creatures. If we could see ourselves from far enough away, we would seem like a colony of insects running into things repeatedly: Thousands of little determined beings butting into obstacles, shaking our little heads and bodies, and running into things again.
I'm put in mind of a computer game that used to be about - whatever happened to it I don't know - where you had to guide the little creatures to all fall off the cliff together or some such thing. As funny as that sounds, it's also very sad and as someone that truly has been running around like a lemming these last few weeks. Doing, doing, doing, tryintg to sort out one thing or another, now that I've had the opportunity - at least in part - to stop a little bit, I realise just how much I have been doing that. How much, as a good friend of mine would say, I've been a 'human doing' rather than a human being.
But truly, it's hard to slow down, when you perceive that you have so much to do... or when your perceptions tell you that if you're not 'doing' something you must be 'being' lazy.
Yesterday, I read half of a book. It was a good thing to do, definitely enjoyable, definitely went part way to recharge the batteries of self... and they do need recharging. I realised I'm exhausted. Oh, not the kind of exhausted where I need to drop into bed and sleep for a week - though the last two days I have been pleasantly tired (as distinctly different from too tired to sleep properly - as I had been before that) - but the kind of exhausted where, if I didn't stop and do something for me, pay some attention to my 'inner child' I was going to explode.
Thankfully, being here, with the woman I love, able to share in things together, experience the things we have in the last few days, together, has allowed me the chance to do that, and I'm embracing it with both hands. A common phrase over the last few days in this house has been, 'We're both movin' real fast' and I don't think that particularly has had anything to do with being lazy, just that we've both been enjoying those moments of inner quiet sharing and togetherness before we move on to the next task that we need to do.
At least for me, that's been the case - and I needed that.
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