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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening:Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
… Yet, to be accepting of the life that comes our way does not mean denying its difficulties and disappointments. Rather, it means that joy can be found even in hardship, not by demanding that we be treated as special at every turn, but through accepting the demand of the sacred that we treat everything that comes our way as special."
I need to learn to accept this. I don't deal well with disappointment – I never have. As a child it was one of the many things that would be guaranteed to pitch me into a full blown tantrum, (yes, complete with lying on the floor kicking and screaming). As I've gotten older, and learned to manage my temper – a necessary survival technique in a household with 2 Sagittarians so close in temperament that it's unreal – I still don't deal well with disappointment, but I try to mute the effects of it.
Unsuccessfully, most of the time and I need to change that. It would be better just to acknowledge it, confess it and let it go… and confess it without adding the pressure of guilt to those around me – that's the hard part. That's the part that leads me to bottle it up inside. Goes back to the other day I guess, where we were thinking about the need to avoid conflict, because of course bottling it up just turns the conflict inward, and my attempts at dealing with the disappointment that started it all in the first place.
My steps are heavy instead of light, my voice harsh not soft, and I'm blinded to the fact that all moments are special between two people very much in love.
"One key to knowing joy is being easily pleased.
… Yet, to be accepting of the life that comes our way does not mean denying its difficulties and disappointments. Rather, it means that joy can be found even in hardship, not by demanding that we be treated as special at every turn, but through accepting the demand of the sacred that we treat everything that comes our way as special."
I need to learn to accept this. I don't deal well with disappointment – I never have. As a child it was one of the many things that would be guaranteed to pitch me into a full blown tantrum, (yes, complete with lying on the floor kicking and screaming). As I've gotten older, and learned to manage my temper – a necessary survival technique in a household with 2 Sagittarians so close in temperament that it's unreal – I still don't deal well with disappointment, but I try to mute the effects of it.
Unsuccessfully, most of the time and I need to change that. It would be better just to acknowledge it, confess it and let it go… and confess it without adding the pressure of guilt to those around me – that's the hard part. That's the part that leads me to bottle it up inside. Goes back to the other day I guess, where we were thinking about the need to avoid conflict, because of course bottling it up just turns the conflict inward, and my attempts at dealing with the disappointment that started it all in the first place.
My steps are heavy instead of light, my voice harsh not soft, and I'm blinded to the fact that all moments are special between two people very much in love.
