Cosmos, Connections and Steps

The desert wind lends you wings
to fly across the land.
You fly across the land
bearing the decrees of heaven.

We all bow to you, trembling,
fearful of your story radiance.
We all bow to you,
knowing you are the epitome of justice.

Bowing to you,
We weep in fear that you will find us wanting.
Bowing you,
We weep in lamentation at our wrongdoing.

Sighing great sighs,
we walk around your shrine and pray.
Sighing great sighs,
we attempt to follow your precise path.

--Song of Akkadian princess Enheduanna to goddess Inanna

It is not as simple as that, for some actions unite us more fully to the cosmos while others separate us from it.

In most senses at the moment I'm feeling that separation. I meditate still, but at the moment that's been a very introspective thing... a self examination, and if I'm honest, quite dark and scary just now. I look and don't like what I see, yet I seem to do nothing about it except talk, and frankly talk is cheap. I need to be doing, not just sitting around thinking about doing, and there's the harsh reality of it all, and for myself and my own peace of mind and soul, because if I can't find that peace and love for and within myself, how can I show it to someone else.

So what are the things that held me to feel that connection, to Universe, cosmos... Goddess.
My connection with cosmos has come with the fact that I've been sending out healing for Zelenka.
It shoud be more than that though. I don't know why I just keep making excuses, saying the same thing over and over again. Just get off my ass - figuratively speaking - and do: Be open - in all things, be giving, trust... at least to those I know I can trust.
Do the things I've said I will, that I've said I want to. Connections with cosmos are also connections with the real world. I need to stop allowing worldly frustrations to stop me from doing. And sure, if I need to make a schedule in order to organise my time, then that's what I need to do.
Give consideration to others needs over my own. This was what I always did before - and the connection with goddess and cosmos was then what I wanted and needed it to be.

Small steps, one thing at a time. Little things lead to big things... bring me back to where I need and want to be. And learning to better deal with the frustrations. That's just the way of it.