I'm Bigger Than You... and I Smell Like Chicken

From The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.

The only reason we don't open our hearts and
minds to other people is that they trigger
confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough
or sane enough to deal with.
--Ane Pema Chodron

How much of my pain comes from ripping up what I've overfastened on days I need to see the sky?

After my rant of the other day I think I have answered this question several times over and I'd say most of it is self inflicted; the after effects of all this overfastening. If I don't do x/say x, then y will happen… and so instead z happens and I do nothing, then end up hurting with either my frustration or someone else's because nothing has been done… or the wrong things have been done.

Having a 'roof' that you can remove is useful, I suppose – allows you to change plans on a dime, go in the opposite direction when you need to – be flexible and subsume what you'd thought you might do and be back into yourself until a time when you can take it out again and dust it off… and actually have the courage to do that. Does it stop you feeling like you're being messed around though?

Damn it! Today I'm having salad and chips and chicken for dinner and to hell with it.