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Finding My Way Again
May. 2nd, 2011 02:51 amFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
We life, embrace and put to rest our dearest things, including how we see ourselves, so we can resurrect our lives anew.
Sitting by the fire yesterday as the sun started going down I had a sudden awakening... turned and asked what the date way, and when being told, non plussed that it was April 30th. Yes, it was Bealtainne, and until that moment it had completely missed it.
Rather than feeling foolish, as I could have done, I felt awakened. It wasn't until yesterday that I realised that I hadn't just let my faith, my way of life fall by the wayside, I had - albeit unconsciously - buried it... laid it to rest to cleanse outmoded, outdated ways of thinking, and to commit to Earth those things that had been rendered as negativities, and therefore tainted what had been that light of perfection in my soul. That carrying the influences of all that had happened with Bran, and with Colin before - and the whole mess of things with the members of the group that turned away, hurting me as they did, was damaging my faith.
So I committed it to Earth to cleanse and purify - to await renewal... and for that renewal, I have Mir to thank. For the meditation garden, for the fire to venerate returning life at Bealtainne... for the renewal of my faith.
The culmination of one love, one dream,
one self, is the anonymour seed of the next.
We life, embrace and put to rest our dearest things, including how we see ourselves, so we can resurrect our lives anew.
Sitting by the fire yesterday as the sun started going down I had a sudden awakening... turned and asked what the date way, and when being told, non plussed that it was April 30th. Yes, it was Bealtainne, and until that moment it had completely missed it.
Rather than feeling foolish, as I could have done, I felt awakened. It wasn't until yesterday that I realised that I hadn't just let my faith, my way of life fall by the wayside, I had - albeit unconsciously - buried it... laid it to rest to cleanse outmoded, outdated ways of thinking, and to commit to Earth those things that had been rendered as negativities, and therefore tainted what had been that light of perfection in my soul. That carrying the influences of all that had happened with Bran, and with Colin before - and the whole mess of things with the members of the group that turned away, hurting me as they did, was damaging my faith.
So I committed it to Earth to cleanse and purify - to await renewal... and for that renewal, I have Mir to thank. For the meditation garden, for the fire to venerate returning life at Bealtainne... for the renewal of my faith.
