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cedar_groveFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Sooner or later, without discipline or devotion, despite our resolutions and mistakes, we each must sleep. We must surrender to the quieting of all intent and regret, so that the small light of the beginning can rise in us, again and again.
Sunday 27th
The truth about morning is that sometimes it dawns so sharply and brightly with such a light that it strips away all that we would hide within and behind. Sometimes its dawning is harsh. Such an awakening has – of necessity – come to me.
There can be no excuses, no procrastination, no waiting and complaining... now there must be action, an acceptance of, and adherence to the pledges and promises that I have made. I can't keep on taking without giving... and I must listen in order to hear. I can't expect it all to wash over me passive in my life, I must become active, I must maintain my commitment to change – for the better.
Part of that is a return to the quiet of my centre where that "light of beginning" dwells. A bigger part of it is to simply be present in my life, in my relationships. I've let down the one person I never wanted to fail, and I won't accept that. I'm more sorry about perpetuating the negative feelings than I can possibly say. Now it changes. Now I return, step by step.
There is a vastness that quiets the soul. But
sometimes we are so squarely in the midst of
life's forces that we can't see what we're a
part of.
Sooner or later, without discipline or devotion, despite our resolutions and mistakes, we each must sleep. We must surrender to the quieting of all intent and regret, so that the small light of the beginning can rise in us, again and again.
Sunday 27th
The truth about morning is that sometimes it dawns so sharply and brightly with such a light that it strips away all that we would hide within and behind. Sometimes its dawning is harsh. Such an awakening has – of necessity – come to me.
There can be no excuses, no procrastination, no waiting and complaining... now there must be action, an acceptance of, and adherence to the pledges and promises that I have made. I can't keep on taking without giving... and I must listen in order to hear. I can't expect it all to wash over me passive in my life, I must become active, I must maintain my commitment to change – for the better.
Part of that is a return to the quiet of my centre where that "light of beginning" dwells. A bigger part of it is to simply be present in my life, in my relationships. I've let down the one person I never wanted to fail, and I won't accept that. I'm more sorry about perpetuating the negative feelings than I can possibly say. Now it changes. Now I return, step by step.
