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The Sleeper Must Awaken
Dec. 13th, 2011 01:05 amFrom The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have.
Then you and I will still be left with ourselves and the world and the treasure at our feet.
I have started reading one of my new books. I quickly read the introduction when I first downloaded them and right then and there I got excited. Here was something that was going to help me reach within, reach to the bottom of my lake and find the gold that's always been within me. Stop running.
So I started reading, and started with the introduction again, a closer and better reading this time, and I didn't get very far before I got to the first part that made me stop and think; the first part that I will meditate on. I'm not going to comment yet on the contents of that – that's for a different post than these – but I will comment on just how comforting, how happy – how much more like myself the whole subject made me feel. No, not an overnight fix, but yes, certainly like meeting an old friend and embracing for the first time in years. It's like that friend – me – has been standing in the shadows on the edges of my awareness since I started meditating for the short while each day that I do, and since I started reconnecting with this part of myself and has now been invited wholeheartedly to step forward into the light for that embrace.
I can't express how profoundly happy and comforted and special that all makes me feel; that all is for me... and while happiness cannot be found anywhere but in one's own self, it might be facilitated, and it has been here, by the gifts of others. In this case that gift was an actual physical gift that was given. Mir gave me these two books for my birthday, and it means so much to me that she did this for me – a long time ago, she said, she arranged it all – and they are both wonderful. The physical gifts are greatly magnified by all of that, by the thought and the consideration and the wondering that she put in to choosing these two books. I can't tell you how much I squea'd when I saw them, but it was a lot... and now I've started working with them, and they have given me the gift of light into which I can step, I'm squeaing even more.
Thank you, my love.
It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves,
and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.
--Agnes Repplier
Then you and I will still be left with ourselves and the world and the treasure at our feet.
I have started reading one of my new books. I quickly read the introduction when I first downloaded them and right then and there I got excited. Here was something that was going to help me reach within, reach to the bottom of my lake and find the gold that's always been within me. Stop running.
So I started reading, and started with the introduction again, a closer and better reading this time, and I didn't get very far before I got to the first part that made me stop and think; the first part that I will meditate on. I'm not going to comment yet on the contents of that – that's for a different post than these – but I will comment on just how comforting, how happy – how much more like myself the whole subject made me feel. No, not an overnight fix, but yes, certainly like meeting an old friend and embracing for the first time in years. It's like that friend – me – has been standing in the shadows on the edges of my awareness since I started meditating for the short while each day that I do, and since I started reconnecting with this part of myself and has now been invited wholeheartedly to step forward into the light for that embrace.
I can't express how profoundly happy and comforted and special that all makes me feel; that all is for me... and while happiness cannot be found anywhere but in one's own self, it might be facilitated, and it has been here, by the gifts of others. In this case that gift was an actual physical gift that was given. Mir gave me these two books for my birthday, and it means so much to me that she did this for me – a long time ago, she said, she arranged it all – and they are both wonderful. The physical gifts are greatly magnified by all of that, by the thought and the consideration and the wondering that she put in to choosing these two books. I can't tell you how much I squea'd when I saw them, but it was a lot... and now I've started working with them, and they have given me the gift of light into which I can step, I'm squeaing even more.
Thank you, my love.
